Time
The saying "time is precious" has become an unfortunate lesson in my life. Nothing becomes more real than losing one life and now the possibility of another to truly wake you up. Life can really be cruel in that way.
I was fortunate enough to be able to spend the day with my husband's family and especially with my mother in-law who has recently been diagnosed with cancer. On my drive home I couldn't help but play back my mother in-law's words of her now precious time as I listened to the song Just Breathe by Pearl Jam. It's a fitting title really, as Sharon has stage four lung cancer and possibly a year to live. The lyrics to the song go along something like this,
Yes, I understand that every life must end, aw-huh,..
As we sit alone, I know someday we must go, aw-huh,..
Oh I'm a lucky man, to count on both hands the ones I love,..
Some folks just have one, yeah,
others, they've got none, huh-uh
Stay with me,..
Let's just breathe.
Practiced are my sins,
never gonna let me win, aw-huh,..
Under everything, just another human being, aw-huh,..
Yeah, I don't wanna hurt,
there's so much in this world to make me bleed.
Stay with me,..
You're all I see.
Did I say that I need you?
Did I say that I want you?
Oh, if I didn't I'm a fool you see,..
No one knows this more than me.
As I come clean.
I wonder everyday as I look upon your face, aw-huh,..
Everything you gave
And nothing you would take, aw huh,..
Nothing you would take
Everything you gave...
Did I say that I need you?
Oh, did I say that I want you?
Oh, if I didn't I'm a fool you see,..
No one knows this more than me.
As I come clean, ah-ah...
Nothing you would take,..
Everything you gave.
Hold me till I die,..
Meet you on the other side.
As I listened to the words of this song, tears rolled down my cheeks as I thought about Sharon and the journey she now has to face. I cried for her, but especially for my family. The thought of my father in-law shaving his wife's head after the chemo side effects had worn in with tears in his eyes, or the thought of my husband no longer having his mother, and even worse yet, the thought of my children never getting to meet their grandmother.
She told me today that she asked God, "why now when everything in my life is good and I am happy?" I truly wished I had the right answer to her important question, as she more than deserved some answers. I will never understand why some of us get cancer and others don't, but I have to be at peace knowing that we will enjoy every last minute of her precious life together.
I was fortunate enough to be able to spend the day with my husband's family and especially with my mother in-law who has recently been diagnosed with cancer. On my drive home I couldn't help but play back my mother in-law's words of her now precious time as I listened to the song Just Breathe by Pearl Jam. It's a fitting title really, as Sharon has stage four lung cancer and possibly a year to live. The lyrics to the song go along something like this,
Yes, I understand that every life must end, aw-huh,..
As we sit alone, I know someday we must go, aw-huh,..
Oh I'm a lucky man, to count on both hands the ones I love,..
Some folks just have one, yeah,
others, they've got none, huh-uh
Stay with me,..
Let's just breathe.
Practiced are my sins,
never gonna let me win, aw-huh,..
Under everything, just another human being, aw-huh,..
Yeah, I don't wanna hurt,
there's so much in this world to make me bleed.
Stay with me,..
You're all I see.
Did I say that I need you?
Did I say that I want you?
Oh, if I didn't I'm a fool you see,..
No one knows this more than me.
As I come clean.
I wonder everyday as I look upon your face, aw-huh,..
Everything you gave
And nothing you would take, aw huh,..
Nothing you would take
Everything you gave...
Did I say that I need you?
Oh, did I say that I want you?
Oh, if I didn't I'm a fool you see,..
No one knows this more than me.
As I come clean, ah-ah...
Nothing you would take,..
Everything you gave.
Hold me till I die,..
Meet you on the other side.
As I listened to the words of this song, tears rolled down my cheeks as I thought about Sharon and the journey she now has to face. I cried for her, but especially for my family. The thought of my father in-law shaving his wife's head after the chemo side effects had worn in with tears in his eyes, or the thought of my husband no longer having his mother, and even worse yet, the thought of my children never getting to meet their grandmother.
She told me today that she asked God, "why now when everything in my life is good and I am happy?" I truly wished I had the right answer to her important question, as she more than deserved some answers. I will never understand why some of us get cancer and others don't, but I have to be at peace knowing that we will enjoy every last minute of her precious life together.
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